Frustrated Poetry

Well, since you seemed to want it, here it is.  A series on my disillusionment.

6/2
start
start here
                they say
you'll have a nice start
    here
jumping off point
jump
am I ready to jump
have I not been taught
to jump
quite well
amply
I can jump
just tell me how high
just tell me
tell
can you tell I'm ready
to jump

all grown up
                     and nothing to do

nothing yet
yet - how to put, tell,
        how to -
articulate
articualted
meticulate it

JUMP

       it's the only way you'll
       learn how to swim without sinking



7/14
Enough.
               is it enough
               have you had enough
               is it ever enough

I've had it up to

here is where it ends

or begins or begins to grate

on me it's all on

me except nothing is given is said.


have you had it
yet
had all
had your fill

when can I say I've had enough



 7/15
           breathe
deep                  breaths

take a moment and relax
     it's not that
         bad

it's not
           really
isn't it kind of what you wanted
well, sort of
                    except

                   not
I didn't sign up for soul-
crushing repression I didn't want
to be Peggy I didn't think I
would be ignored unless needed to
file or mail or ship

but is it really that bad

maybe if I was actually paid
or if I felt a bit accepted
or if I could work on anything
       creative
                    or meaningful

this isn't really what I signed
up for
           is it

unpaid receptionist replacing previous
MIA receptionist oh and sure
copywriting when our other intern
doesn't have it covered
                                      but he does

fine you got me
I was wary when you called
     and my intuition was not wrong
     was it?

fine you suckered me into
giving you 3 months of free
labor
        congratufuckinglations

I really had high hopes
     for this
I was really excited and
    ready to work
    to write
I wish this place didn't
    make me feel
    so terrible

but that's how I feel
       you got me