Been Busy (No Really)

Hey there you POWers. I've been away from the computer for the past four days or so since I took a trip down to see Elizabeth and then babysat for a couple of days while my parents and some members of our church put on a play for the United Church of Christ conference.

My thoughts from my various adventures, in short.

1. I want a kid a little bit. Babysitting Kellen (almost 5 yrs) and Nevin (3 yrs) has been a lot of fun. They're into dinosaurs and super hero movies, and Nevin has this little African American baby doll he carries around with him that he calls "Dadou." It's so goddamn adorable I can hardly stand it. I kind of want a son. Not that I wouldn't love to have a daughter to (at least one of each would be perfect), but I want to hold my own little boy in my arms some day. Is that wrong?

2. Elizabeth is awesome. We went out to bars in Jefferson (where I didn't pay for a drink all night between Elizabeth, her friend Chantel, and a bartender that Chantel knew that got us free drinks). We also watched Dr. Who, played with her dogs, and sang through the song book for both Wicked and Beauty in the Beast. She was trying to get me to sing harmony on "For Good" (From Wicked) which is a hard song and I don't know it! IT'S NOT HAPPENING ELIZABETH.

3. I'm not over Will, but it's getting better. I talked to Elizabeth about Will (poor Elizabeth had to sit through that), and I realize that it comes and goes. Sometimes I feel really sad about it. Sometimes I have these crazy fantasies where he drives up to Appleton to tell me that he loves me and he was soon wrong to treat me how I did . . . and then I kick him out on his ass and tell him he's not good enough for me. (That's the best part of the fantasy.) However, the strongest feeling of them all is this profound sense of relief. I'm just so glad to not be in that relationship anymore. I never have to listen to him talk about how great Street Fighter/Arnold Schwarzenegger/Megadeth/etc. is ever again. Which is a relief.

4. I love my siblings. Last night my parents were still at the conference so Emily, Josh (Em's bf), Paul, and I all played cribagge while everyone but me was drinking. Paul got drunk, for the first time ever. When we played Apples to Apples he kept playing the card "penguins" over and over again. Then I told him he would never win with the card "bongos" so when he got a create-your-own-card when Josh was judging he put down bongos. This probably sounds really stupid and irresponsible, but it was funny at the time. I'm probably a terrible big sister, but I can't stop my siblings from doing anything.

Anyway, that's enough of my life for now. I love and miss you all so much it hurts. I'm so happy this blog lets me hear about your lives.

I will leave you with something that Elizabeth said to me when we were drinking wine in her basement and I was talking about Will. There's a quote from the movie Ever After that goes, "A bird may love a fish, but where would they live?" She offered this alternative to me.

"A bird may love a fish, but what will they talk about when that fish is a robot?"

- <3 Cerasi