(Note: This post is kind of loopy and disjointed. I'm tired. Sorry.)
It's very different from earlier this year. There was kind of a two week period or so after my grandpa died that I felt this incredible sense of loss. Loss of him, loss of my friends and my college lifestyle. But that's passed, finally, and now I feel something else.
Sometimes I feel like there's nothing else in my life besides work. I get up, go to one job, go to the other, come home and play video games. Repeat. I like both of my jobs very much, but it's just not enough to build an acceptable life on. I also never seem to get enough sleep since I work from 5pm-11pm on the week days and then sometimes work at 9am on weekends. Uck.
I want to exercise more. I want to write A LOT more, I think is one of the biggest problems. There just never seems to be enough time to do as much writing as I want.
So here is what I want to change. I want to join a writer's group, something I've been trying unsuccessfully to do since June. I want to work out more. I'm also going to try to have a social life.
I made a friend. This girl from work I've started hanging out with (just a couple of times), so I'm going to get on that.
The other thing I did was I let my parents rope me into the church musical. I don't know if I've ever told you guys this, but at our old church they would write a musical every year and write the music with a member of the church who was a professional musician (very folky, he had long hair for quite a while). This year's musical is a little embarrassing because it's kind about Exodus (Moses and the Israelite leaving Egypt) and . . . . it's sort of Star Trek themed.
No, seriously. The Israelite go on a space ship and travel around the stars looking for the promise land where they discover 1. A planet where everyone looks like a Dr. Seuss character 2.A planet where characters look like stereotypical Frenchman and sing a song about getting water from the rock (the female character's name is Madame D'eau) 3. A two headed intergalatic cow.
Goddamn my parents are nerds. This is what happens when Trekkies write plays for the church. But that is neither here nor there.
I know pretty much all of us are going through tough times right now in one way or another, but I want you all to know (and I'm sure you're sick of hearing this) how much I love you all. Also, I am so goddamn happy we have this blog you have no fucking idea. I don't know how I would get through this post-college uncertainty without it.
You're all fabulous and I love you. <3
That musical sounds so entertaining!
ReplyDeleteIt's funny, I have such similar goals. I've been working out more, trying to lose weight, finding time to write, thinking about joining a writing group, and attempting to build a social life.
So good luck to you in all of your pursuits! I know you will find a writer's group, find some good friends, and everything else.
I miss you terribly, and want you (and everyone else for that matter) to come visit.
<3 Much love!
I know it's unfair of me to say--especially since I'm across the world from you guys, but I feel like my life consists of work, and that's it. I don't have much of a social life here, and I'm trying to keep my traveling and spending to a minimum to save up for the month I have off so that I can go see my family in Taiwan. Sometimes I even forget that I'm in Thailand.
ReplyDeleteI would LOVE to see you in that musical! I don't know much about Star Trek (I know, I know, sod off), but I think it's great that they can mix two ideas and make it fun and work out. Just thinking about it makes me want someone to tape it and put on youtube for me to watch.
Can that be my early birthday present? <3
So glad to hear how everyone's going keep going and making some sort of change to their life! Love you all!
This blog is really wonderful and makes me feel interconnected with you guys. I have been feeling pretty lonely, but i have been occupying my time by exercising a lot and focusing on my diet. 20 lbs gone!
ReplyDeleteI do miss having friends, but I have one friend in town and sometimes go and visit other friends around the state. What is really helping me is talking to D nearly every day, skyping and calling you every week about glee!