Very Tired.

No, not very tired, I'm exhausted.  To continue the quote from Dead Poets Society, not very sad, morose.  

Not very upset, absolutely livid, pissed off, aghast, disappointed, distressed, and disconcerted.

My lovelies, it has been two years.  Well, nearly.  Two years since our commencement and journey into the real world.  It’s had its ups, it’s downs, and now it’s déjà vu. 

I completed my workday on Friday like any other.  I filled out my temp timecard, submitted it, and logged out of the computer programs. 

I got a phone call some minutes after I arrived home.  After my 45 minute drive, which I drove uncomplainingly five days a week for six months.  It was the temp agency. 

“They don’t want you to come in on Monday.”

It’s unbelievable right?  I had been told by everyone who hired me this was a temp to perm position.  They have so much work, they need somebody full-time.  We’re always so busy.  How can we ever get all of this stuff done?

But, no.  Somebody lied.  Not sure who along the way.  My boss’s boss who got sacked a month ago?  My manager?  The HR manager that talked to the temp agency?  The temp agency themselves?  Or maybe it was the CEO.  Who talks a big game, of bringing back bonuses at the company-wide meeting, of creating quarterly incentives for efficiency, of a yearly bonus at 3-5% of your annual salary.  Yeah, that’d be great.  If I got a salary. 

I’m back in the same boat I was two years ago.  Well, maybe not exactly, I have solid design skills, 2 years experience, and cynicism to melt rocks. 

Right, I’ve always had that last one. 

I did nothing wrong.  They said, I did everything wonderfully.  They loved having me, my work was superb, blah, blah, blah.  They just didn’t have it in the budget.  Right.  The guy who sits in the cube next to me, who was hired in January, three months after me; however, there was room for.  He was hired on with a salary, full-benefits, and all that crap.  Yeah, but you, not so much. 

It could be a good thing.  I always knew that company was not a long-term place for me.  I knew there was little growth in the position I had.  I knew I didn’t want to  do what I did there forever. 

Looking back, there wasn’t anything I didn’t do to try to keep my job.  I went above and beyond there to help my saleslady to up her sales numbers.  But now, I guess they might be thinking about giving her the heave-ho too. 

It seems the only thing I should have been doing was look for another job.  

Suddenly, Everything is Happening

I've been searching for a job for three and a half weeks, and finally some pay off.  I had two interviews yesterday.  One went super well, and it was for a full-time marketing coordinator position at an interior design firm.  (Awsome!!)  The other I was not so sure about.  I just didn't leave with a good feeling, like I often do after interviews.

I said to my mother, I don't know if it's because I'm actually really good at interviewing or it's that I have an inflated sense of self, but I always think I do good on interviews.  She said, Oh, it's probably both.  Thanks, Mom.

Anyway, I said that before I had the 2nd interview... Oh and that one was for another unpaid internship.  Meh.  During the interview one guy asked (there were 3 interviewing me...)  if I was chosen and accepted the internship and continued my job job search and was offered a real position, if I would leave.  And I'm like, what?  You're seriously asking me that?  So I said, Well, my long-term goal is to have a full-time position and start my career, so if I perform my job well as an intern, and there's a possibility of me staying on full-time, then yes, I would be willing to stick out the internship.

And this guy says, Oh, well, in an agency setting we can't predict what's going to happen in 3 months.  We might need an entry-level person then and we might not.  It's not a probability of you getting hired.  There is a possibility, but not a probability.

I know what there is a probability of - me seeing through that bullshit.  My dad even got angry when I told him about it.

But in other happier news, the first interview was fabulous.  Everything they need in that position (writer, proofer, creative, strategic thinker, innovater) are all things I can provide, things I do well.  She said the company is a little slow when hiring a new person, but that I shouldn't get worried, because they make cautious decisions.  So, we'll see.  I really hope it pans out.

There was another job I applied for and heard back from, but it's in Madison, WI.  I would be a technical writer for a medical supplier.  It sounded interesting, and they are going to call me for a phone interview sometime this week.  So I'll fill ya in later.

And then today, this guy calls me from a sort of creative temp services thing that I applied to online.  They find project work to full-time jobs for people.  I would get a chance to do some more copywriting.  So I'm meeting with him tomorrow to see what opportunities they can find me.  I don't know if I or the company pays them or how that works, but I think this might be another break for me.

Whew. So, it's weird, but suddenly in my job search EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING!!!  Now I just need one to actually hire me.