pretty sure I'm doing it wrong

So I'm pretty sure I'm doing this dating thing wrong.  Or something.

I've gone on a few dates with this one guy I met at a bar/coffee shop/ restaurant.  Our last date ended awkwardly.  Mostly because of a comment he made after we kissed for the first time.  Maybe a little because I'm the generally awkward person that I am.

Anyway, after we haven't had any contact.  I was unhappy at the comment he made, so I thought, fine YOU text me if you want.  Oh, I forgot to mention, I was the one to initiate texting and hanging out and such after he initially asked me out.  Which I thought was weird.  Or at least I hoped he would text first if he still wanted to see me.

But he hasn't.

And the weirder thing is, I'm kind of okay with it.  I should clarify that it's not that I didn't want him to call.  But.  I'm not sure I really clicked with him.  He was nice enough.  And it was really lovely being taken out to dinner and even getting my ass kicked at bowling.  But.. I don't know, it's hard to articulate.  Because whatever is supposed to be there, was not.


But wait - dear reader - there's something else I'm doing wrong.  Horribly wrong.  I actually have a pretty bad track record with this.

Being attracted to unavailable guys.

There was this guy I met at a happy hour a couple weeks ago.  And he's kinda cute and a doctor and a ginger and has just a touch of a Southern twang.  Oh, and he's got a girlfriend.

Well, Valentine's Day I went to this event at a bar.  And he and his girlfriend were there.  And god, we just got along so well.  He laughs at my jokes and we are both excited for Mardi Gras and… that thing that wasn't there with the other guy, it's there.  Or at least I think it is.

But like I said, he's got a girlfriend.  And she's this tiny adorable little thing that kinda makes me sick.  But she's actually really nice.  And she laughs at my jokes apparently too.  (The three of us got tacos at this magically wonderful taco place after drinks.)  So it's strange.  Cause I can't quite hate her.

So anyway.  That's what's going on with me right now.  Looking for love and I'm pretty sure I'm doing it all wrong.